Over the past few days I have been struggling to stay strong, and have realized that maybe that is just what I should not be doing...staying strong all the time. The time here has been great but very trying also. The distance of being away from home, away from family and friends, away from a strong support system, away from the little luxuries of a much easier life, have really been weighing heavy on my mind. I am missing all of these things...greatly. A lot of the emotion I have held inside and blocked from expressing, so I could keep going, is now pouring out. Yesterday on the flight to Burundi, I was super teary. I believe I have not allowed myself to feel the negative part of moving away from everything familiar. I have embraced all of the unfamiliar things with a positive attitude and joyful outlook...and I have realized this only lasts so long. Yes, this has been a wonderful experience, yet a hard road to travel, and right now I am feeling anything but strong. I am having to really put my last bit of strength in the Lord and His will on my life...it is not easy and I am learning, again, it is a moment by moment choice.
“For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord,
‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future.”
~ Jeremiah 29:11
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